JUST BETWEEN ME AND YOU............read this

Just between me and you,
my scars run deeper than the oceans tides are old.
My life I love is torn between my life i hate
my soul is half complete and half empty,
Just between me and you,
everyday even when im happy i still wanna die
i wanna end it all the time
but i dont
Just between me and you
I love you,
I always will,
your bond to me if deeper than waters and thicker than honey to me it means alot.
JUST between me and you,
I am suffering badly right now in this very second from a deep dark depression that cannot be fixed
and i numb it with smiles and lies of happiness and self confidance,
Just between you and me
I cant help lying to myself, its the only way i live,
but you should kill me for doing so
Just between you and me,
I am ugly , black as coal inside
my mind ponders bloddy thoughts about myself
and my soul lingers empty
i feel no pity
i need no pity
i feel nothing
i am nothing
i need nothing
i am sprialing down ward faster and faster, will you catch me , will you read this, will you even notice a difference in me.............will you save me from this hell hole pit of deep sorrows caskcading down my body from my mind.